I love it when it rains

Welcome to my world of miracles, signs & wonders!

Great is the Lord
And most worthy of praise
The city of our God
The holy place
The joy of the whole earth

And great is the Lord
In whom we have the victory
He aids us against the enemy
We bow down on our knees

And Lord we want to lift Your name on high
And Lord we want to thank You
For the works You've done in our lives
And Lord we trust in Your unfailing love
For You alone are God eternal
Throughout earth and Heaven above

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Wahaha!! i'm so happy!!~ Been busy.... busy with CG things, work.. Hey.., noe wad? i'm so happy loh.. although.., i jus return to ministry as of SUNDAY-24/10/04... I'm feeling so excited & happy all for God! =)

Yesterday, after BS.. went to bro's for discipleship... den ar.. we had a great time with God! His presence was there.. & i'm so happy to be in His will! Thk God! *I JUST LOVE HIM SO!!!!*

**THANKS THANKS JESUS
THANKS THANKS JESUS
THANKS THANKS JESUS

LORD I WANT TO THANK YOU
HOW I WANT TO THANK YOU LORD**

roaringlamb
8:12 PM

Sunday, October 24, 2004

my results are OUT!!! did fairly ok...

den... i'm very happy bcos... God's grace is great! He is jus so awesome... He showered His love, care & encouragements.. & of cos!..., no problem is bigger than my God.. therefore, He is of cos my problem-solver! All are solved indeed.... Thank you, Jesus! i just love my God so much!

God oso blessed me financially.. haha... =) I gotten a scholarship from my mum's union..

roaringlamb
8:41 PM

Thursday, October 21, 2004

i am VERY VERY VERY SUPER unhappy!!!!!!!!

I'm sorry, God! but.. i really hate myself alot! everything turn out in the most unexpected way! & it all seemed lk my fault!! Arr!! Why muz things always turn out the bad way?!

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A story taken from friendster....

Message: fEr aLl hEr lIfE sHe haD bEeN cAlLeD uGlY..sHe dUn deSerVes It..pAsS iT oN..

Message: DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER.... nobody is UGLY!!! This is sooo sad , please think of this everytime you decide to be awful to someone who isn't as "cool" or "popular" or "pretty" as you are-remember, making fun of someone just shows how insecure you really are!

Dear Diary

They told me that I was the ugliest thing they'd ever seen, and i started to cry. I went home and Jake called me. I thought the day would get better. But he told me that long distance relationships dont work out. He lived in California, and I moved to Michigan.Then I told him I loved him and that I missed him. He told me that the only reason he ever went out with me was because I was a joke, and he was dared to. Then he dumped me. We were going out for two and a half years!

November 9,1999

Today got a little better. I miss jake so much you dont even know diary!!!! But he even changed his number so I wouldn'tcall him. But the most hottest guy at school asked me to the dance! And those prissy girls that said im ugly let me hang out with the mat lunch today. It was cool!!

November 10,1999

I'm crying right now... turns out that hot guy was a jerk at the dance he poured his punch on me, and those girls ripped my dress and everyone started laughing. Then my grandma told me today that mom and dad got in a little car accident today at work. They're in critical condition, they might die.
I can't write anymore.

November 11, 1999

Today's a saturday... but me and grandma were at the hospital all night long. Dad died this morning. Mom is going to live, but she's crippled for her life. I wanna die too. while we were at the hospital grandma found out that she had cancer in her stomach. She has to go on chemo-therapy. I cant believe daddy died. I'm crying more than I have my whole life. I'm in shock. I cant write...
I'm too tired. I need sleep.

November 12

Daddy is not dead! He can't be! Its all a dream. My life is perfect. Jake still loves me. I can barely write. I'm crying too much. I wanna die. Take me. Bye...

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One day later, Lisa was found dead in her basement.She had hung herself with a yellow rope. I am her mother. My name is Maranda Gonzalez. The reason I wrote this e-mail to all of you, is because no one else deserves what my daughter had. Please remember that everyone needs love. Everyone needs a hug everyday. No one should be made fun of, or insulted. No one deserves to die like Lisa did. All of you please dont be the popular prissy girls that put other people down to make themselves feel better! Please dont be the awful posessed date for the dance that makes people cry.

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i tink tis story's msg is so TRUE! EVERY SINGLE INDIVIDUAL deserves the best! No one lk to be mis-treated! So, my dear frenz, STOP being mean to ppl ard you! & oso STOP taking ur frenz, esp ur closest ones for granted!

Take care & God bless!

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To YOU (u shld noe who u r) :-

THANK YOU with ALL of my HEART for everything! for ur friendship, for ur love & care! for the happy & sweet times + memories! I jus wana wish you all the best in all ur future undertakings! Take good care of urself & grow in wisdom & stature in God's loving grace!

roaringlamb
11:20 PM

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

started work yesterday... so far so gd.. but ar.. ha! i frightened many many many of my colleagues... some tot they saw wrongly.., some were utterly shocked.., some tot lorraine has a twin sista.. haha.. so funny..! aniwae.., its good so far bcos i'm really glad to have seen them.. i really missed them..

den @ my dept, it's great! so far, not much work... God is taking great care of me! =)

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Bro Kai, i have to admit that there are just too many things on my mind.. on sunday.. tat's y i'm so distracted.. But i really feel very very lost.. i dun even noe if u'll ever read tis but wad i can & would say is, i really pray with all of my heart that i'll NOT do things against His will..

Tks for ur love & care all these while.. Living a life knowing tat there's one who cares esp when my close fren accused me.. really just makes me feel a lot better.. Tks!!

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ah ng, i dunno why... but it's always the most contradicting thing to ever take place that'll hurt me... Rah!!!!

roaringlamb
1:15 AM

Sunday, October 17, 2004

i'm UPSET!!!!! terribly upset... by YOU!!! I cared so i spoke... & yet u say u dun & cant trust me animore..! If i'm not concerned, i wont even be SO UPSET NOWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You should noe wad kinda person i am! Am i one who betrays ur trust? Am i such a fren to you?????!!!!!
Smt..., i tink it HURTS MORE when the one who accuses you is the one you love the most! Rah!!!!!!! I HATE SATAN!!!! YOU ALWAYS SOW DISCORD AMONG GOD'S PPL BCOS YOU ENVY GOD'S PPL'S PROSPERITY!!!!!!!!!!

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Hey my dear frenz, there is a family carnival on 13 Nov & 14 Nov.... organised by my church.. @ S'pore Indoor Stadium. I would like to open my invitation to ALL of you... There'll be a service @ 7.30pm on 13 Nov & 10am on 14 Nov... Pls call me or email me if you are interested in coming. my email add: lorraine_ng86@yahoo.com.sg
Tks! God bless you!

roaringlamb
11:11 PM

Friday, October 15, 2004

i'm BoReD... i'm supposed to go & buy my make-up set + clothes to get ready for work next week... but i seriously am too lazy & not motivated to do anitin....! rah!

i was chatting wif a fren whom i noe thru my another fren...~this lady is very nice & interesting... we noe each other for some time le but but but... haha.. we've nv met b4... seen each other's pic only... she's getting married on xmas day! so cool!!~den she invite me to her wedding... but i tink very weird loh.. i dunno anione.., den i say i'll see how cos tat tym, is in the midst of sch term..(sian!!!) but wad to do...? i cant decide when sch shld start & end... rah! but glad 4 her... she's a real swt lady! haha... ^cant wait to mit her though..^

but i oso found out certain things... so i'm quite upseet too... my fren....have been drinking.. not taking gd care of his own health.. but.. haix... there's nth i can do... some things just have to remain as it is until God say anitin... *God's will be done not mine..*

i miss sp....!!! sms her a relatively lame nitez sms yesterday.. she replied... so sad,... she lk gonna be working daily till dunno when... haix... my dear ger ger, pls take gd care of urself... clara oso have been asking to go out but but but but but.... starting work next wk le... so cant go... i wonder when can we go out....???!!!!! haix... take care.., my dearest frenz....

*missing 5/1'03 + TB026'04*--> not all but MOST!!!! esp... my clique!!

roaringlamb
4:44 PM

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

jus rec'd a call from my aunt... got a job offer... in a totally different dept.. den.. mus put make-up & really dress up cos y? mus cover receptionist job... But i still took up the offer.. cos @ least i've some $ den no $.... hee... but the pay is real low...but got budget constraint due to their bad sales turnover... so okok la... But i really pray that God see me thru... aniwae, only work for 1mth++ [18 Oct to 26 Nov]...okok la..

mmm, my bday no need go out le... haix... unless.., got ppl willing go out with me @ evening... *HAIX*

but tat means, next wed i cant join the rainbow gals for wrap-up in sch... sad.... but no choice..

roaringlamb
1:15 PM

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

i went out wif mdm ah lian... that ger ar... whole evening tok abt only 1 name... haha... shant disclose her secrets... aniwae, she's kinda disappointed cos many shops closed super early... bcos of their company's D&D... den she's so upset...haha.. but she has her fair share of fun somehow... wahaha...

we went to eat dinner @ Han's.. mdm ah lian bully me ar... i put on weight, u all will noe... cos ah lian keep asking me eat eat eat... haha.. aniwae.., she's very lame & crappy the whole nite.... mayb be cos her wires are SUPER out ba... haha..

guess who i met today?! many many many ppl... 1st, i saw yingning at bedok's mrt elevator.. den i was @ the platform.. guess wat?! i tot i heard KK's voice..den i tot i was dreaming... i turned & to my surprise, i saw KK, baolian & annie..haha.. den i very happy la.. so excited to see KK... cos i really miss him den i dreamt of him yesterday..haha.... coincidental... aniwae.., its kinda funny... he's a bit ill.... having cold... me too... haha.... den i say him..., y i sick he oso sick... lame i noe but... haha...iya... tat's me whenever i'm wif KK... haha.... many things r very coincidental b/w us... wad a gd fren of mine! den was @ suntec when i saw dearest chiu mian.. she was gg for tuition class @ CHCEC... haha... den saw my bro @ Pacific Coffee with his buddy..., Eric.. haha... so cool to see so many ppl today. haha...

roaringlamb
9:55 PM

A Tribute To Mr Quah Siew Kow(Extracted from material published by Streats, 6th August 20o4)

Mr Quah Siew Kow is a PE teacher who believed in tough love and his students remember him as a teacher who meted out tough punishments like ordering them to do 40 push-ups or raising his voice at them. But behind the tough veneer, the St. Anthony's Canossian Secondary School students also knew him as a man with a heart of gold. Many of them who said they had learnt alot from Mr Quah. Old students and friends have been streaming into the Singapore Casket parlour since Tuesday to pay their respects at his funeral wake.

Mr. Quah was 52 when he was diagnosed with stomach cancer just four months ago. He lost his battle on Aug 2, 2004. Mr. Quah's widow, Madam Susan Fong, 49 said : " On Tuesday, the room was so packed that visitors had to queue up."

Mr. Quah, a physical education teacher and trainer of the national tennis team in the 1980s. Even though he was an advocate of tough coaching, he had touched his students deeper than he knew. Those who turned up at his wake included students from the 1970s. Madam Fong said one if the visitors was a student her late husband coached in tennis more than 20 years ago!
Madam Fong met her husband when they were both relief teachers in a school in Jalan Kechil. She describe her husband of 24 years as a kind man who made sure he spent quality of time with her. "We were only a year away from our silver wedding anniversary," she said. After he diagnosed with cancer, Mr. Quah said he would win the battle and take his wife on a year-end holiday.

Sister Angela Ng, Supervisor of the Canossian school recounted : "His last words were:' Pray for courage. Pray I won't go into despair.' From the last words, I knew he is staying strong. Fighting bravely against those cancerous cells."

He told Madam Kee that he regretted scolding his students and being harsh with them. However, many students knew that his bark was worse than his bite. Students both young and old salute him for trying to be the best teacher and friend that he know how and, in his own fashion, smoothening the rough edges of many girls, turning them into polished ladies.

If the wealth of a man is counted by the lives he has helped shaped, then Mr. Quah Seng Kow is indeed a very rich man and we more so for being in his shadow.

A Tribute To Mr Quah Siew Kow

He who loves loses all? Or is it true that when one doesn’t know what love is loses everything? When news that one of my most respected teacher passed away yesterday, a form of sadness swept over me. Moments like this always reminds me of how fragile life is, how everyone needs to go, how we should just live a life the way we want. How many never see tomorrow. How we may never have a chance to show our appreciation to the people that deserve it.

Yes, he is a legend in my school and will always be. He’s one of the 2 male teachers in a convent and he’s a real “tyrant”. No one dares to provoke him. You won’t even dare look into his eyes when he starts raising his voice. No girls dare even to fake excuses for our PE lessons (that’s why even our weakest gal in school is considered fit). That was merely 14 years ago.

I had my moments with him. After which I was cursing and swearing the whole day of how unreasonable he was. However, I truly appreciate his effort in contributing for the wellbeing to each and everyone of us and as well as to the school. He must have realized that he’s not very popular in school because of his notoriety. But that never seemed to bother him. Infact, I remembered he was even shocked when I asked to have a picture taken with him during our graduation ceremony.

During his period of illness, he and his family didn’t want any visitors, the students and ex-students respected their privacy, the only pity is that we had no chance to show our concern after all this years. As I believe many of us must have realized how much effort he had put in to make us a better person without least expecting anyone of us to ever remember him as most of us would think of him as a tyrant anyways.

You may have left us, you may not even realized what you have done has benefited us greatly, but I want to thank you for pushing us the way you did, for being evil to us when you were our PE teacher, and yes even for punishing us in the most unimaginable way. Because of all this, I was really proud when I first stepped into college; I realized how fit I was with your training that I could even beat some of the weaker guys when we had PE lessons. I also realized that your care and concern are never shown in the gentlest manner, but the shouting and “torturing” is all about telling us to believe in what we are capable of doing, pushing us for the extra mile that we never have thought we could stretch.

In short, I want to and need to Thank You for shaping me the way I am today! Thank you, Mr Quah, you’re truly a legend before, during and even after my time in St Anthony’s Convent. Au Revoir!

Written by Ex-S.A.C Student

A Tribute To Mr Quah Siew Kow

In memory of Mr. Quah

We all remember this tyrant
all true in his colour of arrogance
he slaved, slashed, tormented us
his only gift to us - ignorance

now he's continuing a new journey
a new career maybe
would he then be the same wherever
I guess its just left for him to see

deep inside his heart,
we know, we have always been a part
of his life and misery
we're sad, now, that he departs

toward heaven we believe
much away from earthly grieve
trust he'll keep "fat" souls on toes
did he really have to leave?

I end this message with a tear
for someone i thot was never dear
to me or any one of us
i realise now he'll always be near

By Lena Tan Canossian Alumni Ex-Co Member

roaringlamb
2:02 PM

+** Always have a DREAM......**+
+** No matter what comes your way.**+
+** Remember life is what you choose, Not what you hope someday.**+
+** Always have a DREAM.....**+
+** Keep pressing toward the prize.**+
+** Release the past, Embrace tomorrow, let your spirits rise.**+
+** Always have a DREAM....**+
+ ** Inspired by God, And then as He refines the Edges**+"
+** He'll give it back again.**+

[taken from Siew Chin's email..]

Woah... Holidays... but den ar.. now i hope for school term.. hee... crazy ar? i noe... cos no job offers ma.. dun tink i'm nuts... i'm not!! haha... aniwae, i saw an ad wif a job vacancy for admin asst for 1mth... so i sent my resume & let's pray that God will give me the job.. not going back to YAS cos no vacancies... but its good... it jus really meant that God is telling me that the past dun matter.... Haha! Thk God for being such a wonderful God! Praise the Lord!
i was jus chatting wif jac online. She say that she's able to turn up for svc & cg tis wk.. isnt that wonderful? God is jus so gd.. her mum allows her out cos she studied real hard for her exams.. Praise the Lord!

aniwae, sc, i tink i joining the alumini la... cos we nv noe when we'll ever lose contact... better play safe then nv... haha...

roaringlamb
1:29 PM

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Woah! the papers are FINALLY over! i'm so happy... so glad n so glad... =)

didnt blog tis whole wk cos 1) laptop not wif me.. 2) exams.. 3) say exams le surely study de ma..., wher on earth will have time? haha

aniwae, i'm really glad that its all over now.. let's see wat i can recall den will blog..
basically, this wk relatively hectic cos of exams... but thk God! He is faithful even when i'm faithless... Hallelujah! Praise the Lord for that! oh ya... but then ar... quite sad ba... cos... one of my good fren is in thailand now..commando training..wad to do? NSF...haix.. miss him sia.. while my dear ah lian miss him @ movies i miss him sms-ing & chatting wif me to cheer me up & encouraging me.... =(

was online one of the days in the wk..to relieve my stress... cant rem when... but a bit obvious that its when my younger bro lend me his comp... den i was chattin wif bro kai & jianlin-my ex-sjab NCO coursemate.. => it was an enjoyable time chatting wif both of them.. i was jus sharing with bro abt wad i felt den.. wad can i say? my cgl is awesome... he nv fail to encourage me the best that he noe how.. den we oso ra-ra a bit den went off net real soon after that..
den was chatting with jianlin too... woah... We spoke of those days (lk 4yrs back), how we met & knew each other.., our passion for sjab.., wher we & how we now.. still in contact wif who etc... + a little catch up wif each other... those days are really fun.. & memorable... but best NOT to be re-live... haha... [torturous training days; fun 'one die all die' times though]

den tis wk basically is study study + study.. & stress la...

let's say fri ba... i'm very happy papers over but sad that i didnt join clara, evon & sp to go out... noi noi la... ask me go wif her to the driving centre to book her test dates..(lk go alone will kill but nvm) + guess who we saw? Es & bf....haha.. den went back to sch to return the library bks..-didnt realise due date was 8/10/04, u see..-den went to orchard by bus 65...(gd time to zzz but butt hurts sia!).. arrived @ orchard, went to cineleisure....went sembawang & bought Linda's CD..finally... i was so happy... den went to taka to walk & eat.. after that, went pass taka itself @ B1 i tink... where mac & kfc are located... *sad* cos the xiaomianyang i wanted was sold out liaoz..... ^sob^sob^ but *hint hint* i noe bugis got sell but dunno still have ma.. haix.. den took bus 14 back to bedok... [i love orchard but dun lk go @ nites.... always end up taking 14 instead of 7 no matter how long i wait...rah!] again, accompany noi go ntuc...-saw my 2nd uncle & family.. den my uncle asked abt my laptop... [ i oso miss it but not wif me...=( ] den after that went home.. bashed but didnt wana zzz early lei... hee...

but then again, after all these stuff tis wk comes to an end on fri... my new wk starts with sat cos going to church!!!! haha.. so excited...!~ but but but...... i'm very upset.... cos ar.. one of my close frenz lk all of a sudden draws away from me.. ask him things ar, the reply all very 1-word or 2-word based de... i oso dunno how... i now he's not gg thru a smooth patch.. tried to encourage him le... even called him up while taking a break from studies to chat him up but den... he gave me COLD shoulders... jus now chat online with him too.... same thing... or rather... worst..., didnt even wana reply me... sad.... but i'm not gg to dwell in this sadness..-i'll give it unto Jesus... & God'll help me thru!-

i learnt smt new today from noi on the bus-es journery... i learnt sign language... my goodness, it's so fun & exciting but den rather tough... but with determination, nothing is too tough to be learnt/mastered.. Moreover, my beloved God is with me... With God, all things are possible! AMEN!!!!!

*ng, dun blame me... dun grumble too... i wish it could have been shorter but one wk's entry considered quite short le la... haha.. take care....

roaringlamb
2:57 AM

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward.
Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking.
Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors.
Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive.
Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking.
Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient.
Stubborn and hard-hearted.
If there is a will, there is a way.
Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked.
Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded.
Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited.
Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic.
Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities.
Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets.
Not able to control emotions.Unpredictable.

roaringlamb
2:08 AM

Friday, October 01, 2004

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

roaringlamb
1:02 PM

Haha! God is good isnt HE?

i consider myself FINALLY set free~! TOTALLY cut off from worldly affairs! NOT tangled in the world animore...! it's truly a HIGHLY danGeROuS place to be in.. [aniwae, i'm OUT of it..]

firstly, i wana say.., Bro Kai, I'm sorry... i lied last sunday..~ i wasnt ok.. but now... I'm really alrite! Thk God i didnt continue dwelling in that ungodly r/s! Otherwise, my goodness.., the devil wld have won.. But haha! too bad.., he failed utterly... Although my decision & act..caused that friendship, but i rather things this way den otherwise.. @ least, the truth prevails. Bro, i'll update u k?.... Haha..!
~In His presence is fullness of joy!~ [Hahaha!!!!!]

roaringlamb
9:18 AM